"i dont care"

i just read threw my blog entrys and realize most of the things i write about are compleatly incoherent, and the have improper grammer, spelling, and no punctuation what so ever, it doesnt surprise me but you all probly have no clue what im talking about half the time-heh anyway g'night!

hi everyone!! im back! so where did i leave off? oh yes crazy ol' santillo anyway today i was walking in the hall an some guy "bummped" into me "accidentily" and grabbed my crotch! i gave him a dirty look cuz i was late or else i woulda knocked him in the head (no i couldnt do that, but i was like what the hell? heh) and then at lunch i had a quite a pleasant conversation with Lisa Castallano (no relation to Lance) that was nice and then after school i met liz and alana and liz yelled at alana cuz she was being annying and it was one of the funniest things i had seen in a while. liz is soo funny shes really cool it was fun hanging out with her. we walked to north garnivelle together to see marks lax game and t was very fun. shes sooooooo! cool and we played on the playground at the school NRHS should have a playground! oh and at NGES i saw my cousin Tara who is so cool shes another person i enjoy in my family, and then we met Danya at the game and her boyfriend who was actually quite cool he had a good since of humor. and the whole time me and liz were talking about wanted to eat glazed popems and when i got home my daddy bought me a treat and he got glazed popems it was very exciting!! i finally returned to my tap dancing classes tonight i dont remember an absolute thing and it was actually quite humerous. and nicole pagnotta told me i smelled nice and that made me very happy because i wasnt wearing anything so that means i just naturaly smell good i enjoy nicole pagnotta i really do shes a very pleasant person! well i went to nyssma i didnt do great and i actually did worse than my usually bad but i wasnt upset cuz i dont think its that important and doing well doesnt mean that much to me, so ill be satisfied with what ever i get it was a nice experience though, erin turned my pages for me!! and lisa told me i smelled nice too!! which made me feel even better cuz now i knew nicole wasnt liying(i knew you were sincere in your complement, but the back up boosted your complement) yay so i actually had quite a spectacular day!! and now im off to go call robby cuz i havent seen him all day and i miss him!! awww yay!! ew! this morning i walked into the band room and rob wasnt there and not even two seconds passed by when Jessica Gross yelled "OH! robs left and hes not coming back for the rest of the day!! so come talk to me!!" and then she started asking me about gymnastics and if i could do them which was just really an excuse for her to talk about how she used to be a phenominal gymnist bacvk in the day. uh huh ( what day?) well anyway i wish every one a good night and just incase you read this and i dont have your e mail adress check out http://www.cestcop.com/jmacs.htm it was sooooooooo cool i was tres excited! anyway see you all soon! night.

hello!, quite the splendid past few days! thurs day was nice as usualy and tocay was exceptionaly good!! first period i had academic breakfast amanda freidman sang so amazing i wanted to congradulate her and give her a BIG hug but she had left by the time i got over there her voice was phenominal! second period i came in late and he forgot to ask me for my homeworj and that was such a relief cuz i didnt have it done. few! oh and yesterday i got out of basically failing gym again because coach munchink thinks im on drugs lol anyway, then oh wait omg mrs santillo!! ask for details if you care but she blackmailing me and honestly i dont fucking care but still shes a bitch. heh i said enough i may as well say the whole thing we were talking about my cold hands and then all the sudden she was talking about how i cut her class but i thought she was telling me i cut myself lol and i was like what?! looking at my wrists and stuff but then i realized we were talking about her chourus class and she said i wont wite you up for cutting if you go to nyssma and thats dumb and if she even did what the fuck(and now my others a bitch so ill finish this later... to be continued

*UPDATE* im finally done sulking this day has now become tres bein!! all thanks to ruthie!! yay! i belive ruthie just may be the person i enjoy the most on this whole planet!! shes so funny. she really makes me laugh her vocabulary and the way she phrases things is absolutly perfect and shes just so funny. and enjoyable like i have to say i like many people and get along with everyone but there are very few people i enjoy all the timne and ruthie is definatly one of them shes just so... ruthie! yay ok so all is well im happy AND ITS ALL THANKS TO RUTHIE!! hoorah!!

i hate everything! i hate contacts and music teachers mostly (except mrs drake!!) today has been the suckest day ever and i just found out i have a dentist appointment next teusday, and i was like FUCK! im in a very critical mood. i just hate everything!and when i got homoe today i was so excited cuz there was cake in the fridge and i was like yay! cake but then i found out it was from my grandma when i unwrapped it and smelled the disgusting stench of smoke! and when i bit into it it tasted like ciggerete butts so i just threw the whole thing out! what a waste:( i had to go home and its not fun cuz i have no one that im close enough to to invite myself out with them and i have nothing to do to invite them to and i had no hw so going home really sucked so i went grocery shopping cuz i love that and that sucked too i ended up getting a pack of gum and some strwberrys but the strawberrys were gross and unripe! and then i was so bored i sat online doing nothing I HATE COMPUTERS and i HATE THE INTERNET. i miss hanging out with cool people oh! and i can go on a feild trip this friday with danielle perisi this friday for reasons i dont know but i can and im sad . and i think jena is cool! eh! eh im gonna sit on this computer and make my life miserable instead of trying to enjoy life. but just for today then ill go back to good all positive john!!and be happy with a ll life has to offer and enjoy every moment of it!!

HELLO! crappy day. first of all, for some reason people are beginging to think i like danielle perrone. uh huh? did we all forget im gay and going out with robert cuz me and danielle are just friends and for me to like her really doesnt make any sense, attall. ok well now that that is hopefully cleared up, i give you my day: well 1st period i went to the damn book fair and saw coach munchnik i had to explain to him why i cut yesterday and why my essay is so crappy. well that almost made me cry then i failed a math test and i hate band and mr powers i am so happy im never playing music in school again! teachers dont seenm to realize i dont care about music, and then tell me to do it anyway and then get mad at me when i dont care so w/e screw them! anyway: i really wanted to take my time coming home (meaning hang out with rob before he went home but he took me home thats ok rther isnt much i coulda done. and i have to say im very jealous of nicole pagnotta. after jr prom i was so upset rob wasnt there cuz it was one of the funnest times in my life and i couldnt share it with the person i like the most in this whole world. and this is going to be such a memorable fun time for him and i really wish i could be there to share it with him. but im happy hes going with nicole pagnotta cuz i honestly really like her and if it were anyone else id be slightly more upset about it all. more to say but have to go so think about this: isnt masturbating and internet sex quite the same thing?! (hint: they are, its just instead of getting off to picture you get off to abunch of guys talking dirty to you and the guys arent even real cuz the are just stupid perverts and theres a bunch of them so its not quite intamet(spelling?) its more like masturbating) which is not a bad thing unless it conflicts with religous beliefs etc. ok byebye

oo guys i forgot to tell you go out and buy Newman's Own brand Virgin Lime-Aid it is absolutly delicious and all the proceeds go to charity so not only are you enjoy a delicious drink, you are also hepling poor starving children in africa. and there are clever stories on the back of all his products. so next time you or your parents are at the grocery store buy Newman's Own brand anything he has candy, salad dressing, chips, drinks and more. ALL the profit goes to charity!! and its delicious. and if all that hasnt done it for you Paul Newman is a really cool guy!!

hello all. ive been thinking, i feel this blog is way too dorky (even for me) and i really dont enjoy it, but when ever i stop for a while many people comment on how they miss my post (which you realy have to have no life to be intrested in because i dont have a life and if your reading about the day of someone with no life im sory but thats pretty pathetic.) but to make the media happy i decided ill continue this blog but give me a week or so between entrys so i can actually have things to put in them. anyway with no further adue i give you todays blog entry: i want to go clubbing i told miss bernardo to go with me so the deal is if shes still working here when i turn 18 we will go clubbing together. but shes way to cool for me so id only end up ambarssing myself, i need to get a fake id and actually having one would be pretty cool but when people were actually taking me seriously and showing me stuff to do and who to see i got scared cuz thats really bad although having one wouldnt be that bad although if i did use it to go clubbing the scary thing is i could probly pass for an 18 year old :/ w/e. i had a lovely phone conversation with amanda freidman today and i feel like all lifes problems have been lifted off my shoulders. hmm what else happened to day?? OH! i decided to join youth against cancer with one of the coolest people i know: danielle perisi, and i got to see my friend kim who i havent seen in like months and it was tres exciting cuz shes the coolest and i miss her:( im so sad there will be no 9th grade last year cuz there are alot of cool people in that grade that i like, oh well. hmm i belive thats all the intrestnig things today. oh jr prom was nice and daniele perrone looked gorgeous she really did i didnt even recognize her when i walked in she was really pretty! well i seem to be out of things to say oh wait no the best thing!!: my omy is excepting me!! not 100% but shes cool she likes my friends and is beging to realize i have a boyfriend who i love very much and hes not just some creepy gay guy i hang around so thats nice! i love my mom i really do but i dont think she thinks before she talks like i dont know if any of you have ever seen the passive agressive pam schetch on snl buyt shes kinda like that a bitch who means well but cant exactly show it to people ::shrugs:: uh huh well i guess i should go back to my school work im very annoyed i have to do a gym report thats due tomarrow that i found out about on friday and it doesnt matter how long it is it just has to be exceptionaly good which is a pain cuz writing about saftey isnt that intresting and itll be hard to enjoy writing about something so tedious as saftey techniques in the weight room. oh well i wish i had known i was goning to be going back to gym cuz i was under the impression i was out for the year but it was my desision to go back (?) oh well it isnt that bad i wish i had chose to make up the classes insted now ESPECIALLY SINCE ROBERT IS GROUNDED!! ugh your so stupid! :) silly. Aaanyway this ebtry is long enough so ill mention *AMANDA FRIEDMAN* and say fare well. have a good day everyone!!:)

HELLO!! i swore id never write in this thing again but im sooooooooo happy!!since friday life has been wonderful and even tho ive had minor problems they are over shadowed by the absulute wondeerful life i have:) on friday i got to spend time with robert which was a long needed hang out. oh and the day before that i was sad so technically thurs day nite life became splendid cuz i began liking my brother and saw robert at work anyway back to friday: i had elios for dinner, hadnt had that since i was little! i really think krista is cool. i went on a picnic saturday, so nice, sun. i did yard work and helped my family for like the first time in my life and it was dirty but after i was done i looked really sexy cuz my hair was all messed up and i had on a tight tee shirt and nice jeans anyway we all know im so damn sexy so ill go on to monday!! yay today was the best i played with glitter, had a fire drill, went to studyhall with amanda freidman who by the way i love you so much and you are just the best!!anyway fourth i had bio and miss bernardo is the coolest and she hung up my test cuz she was so proud of me that i got a 98 LUNCHTIME :actuallt was the worst part of the day eccept for te fact that i cant get the damn wicked soundtrack out of my head. then i hung out with danielle perisi for the rest of the day and i like her so much shes almost as cool as jena, so that was a laugh i went to her softball game too and then i got hoyers! Today wasnt actually that good but i just got home and im soooo happy i wish i could stayed with rob longer since i was no longer exhausted. we watched a sad movie in bio about diing children and usually that styuff doesnt bother me but today i couldnt even finish watching the movie! i was so sad so i put my head down and covered my ears oh lalalalalala im so happy!! oh and amanda gong you are so cool, and so is xavier anyway im shure this was the most boring entry yet but in had to share with everyone what a wonderful life i have mabye this makes up for the crappy spring break i had. im happy so im going to continue: my lsat few days have had alot of bad points but im so the opposite of depressed: cheery? hm oh and erin fraunenhofer (sorry i know thats spelled wromng) is very cool and i apologized to lisa you were right! um let me mention people that will be fun adam yudman :hope your well, kristen felker: we will hafe to hang out sometime, maggie hey hun, ok this isnt as fun as i thought. hmm well this has cometo the point where its even annying to me so god only knows how you must feel, but yay im happy and i bid you all farewell oh! and if anyone knows if mayhap is a word, please do tell! good bye all and hope everyones life is as great as mine!!

HELLO!! i swore id never write in this thing again but im sooooooooo happy!!since friday life has been wonderful and even tho ive had minor problems they are over shadowed by the absulute wondeerful life i have:) on friday i got to spend time with robert which was a long needed hang out. oh and the day before that i was ad so technically thurs day nite life became splendid cuz i began liking my brother and saw robert at work anyway back to friday: i had elios for dinner hadnt had that since i was little! i really think krista is cool. i went on a picnic saturday, so nice, sun. i did yard work and helped my family for like the first time in my life and it was dirty but after i was done i looked really sexy cuz my hair was all messed up and i had on a tight tee shirt and nice jeans anyway we all know im so damn sexy so ill go on to monday!! yay today was the best i played with glitter had a fire drill went to studyhall with amanda freidman who by the way i love you so much and you are just the best!!anyway four i had bio and miss bernardo is the coolest and she hung up my test cuz she was so pround of me that i got a 98 LUNCHTIME actuallt was the worst part of the day eccept that i can get the damn wicked soundtrack uot of my head. then i hung out with danielle perisi for the rest of the day and i like her so much shes almost as cool as jena, so that was a laugh i went to her softball game to and then i got hoyers today wasnt actually that good but i just got home and im soooo happy i wish i could stayed with rob longer since i was no longer exhausted. we watched a sad movie in bio about diing children and usually that styuff doesnt bother me but today i couldnt even finish watching the movie i was so sad so i put my head down and covered my ears oh lalalalalala im so happy!! oh and amanda gong you are so cool, and so is xavier anyway im shure this was the most boring entry yet but in had to share with everyone what a wonderful life i have mabye this makes up for the crappy spring break i had. im happy so im going to continue: my lsat few days have had alot of bad points but im so the opposite of depressed cheery? hm oh and erin fraunenfofer (sorry i know thats spelled wromng) is very cool and i apologized to lisa you were right! um let me mention people that will be fun adam yudman :hope your well, kristen felker: we will hafe to hang out sometime, maggie hey hun, ok this isnt as fun as i thought. hmm well this has cometo the point where its even annying to me so god only knows how you must feel but yay im happy and i bid you all farewell oh and if anyone knows if mayhap is a word, please do tell! good bye all and hope everyones life is as great as mine!!

hello! marvolous day! i really feel like im on drugs so i wasnt as fun as i coulda been but the day was the best in a long time!(you can tell im not myselff when there is only one exclamation point after a sentence instead of double ones)anyway my day!: first rob picked me up and we went grocery shopping ( aboring chore to most but i love it!) then we went back to my house and made samwiches and got ready for our picnic. we took danielle perrone on a picnic for her birthday it was very nice even splendid i might say! we went to eugene leavy park and it was nice too sunny!! but still nice we talked for a while then went back to robs listened to the damn wicked sound tracvk aaahhhhhhhhh its so annoying!! anyway then we went out to dinner at scoozi"s and i split a dinner with amanda f it was fun! then we hung out at robs till the night: a very very nice day in all. then i deciced to go home instead of going out for ice cream with robert and company and im a little upset i did cuz my mom wasnt excepting me home till one o clock! so i could a gone out and then some but i was home so i made the best of it and talked to my moms friends who are way cooler than she is and i have no clue how she has them! but i talked to them and we all made fun of my mom-laughfs-then i relized my mom is cracked out of her mind cuz she mad at me cuz i lost a cd that shes never listened to a day in her life and it was the most absolute rediculous ubsurd thing ive ever indured but i didnt even bother getting mad cuz it was absolutly rediculous! any way great day!! and good night!! and today i shal mention... *danielle perrone* HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! since i prolly wont wright anything tomarrow!! yay!

i had Elio's pizza for diina! mad good yo!!!!!, and im gonna watch the brady bunch movie now. (hello Jill hope you kicked but in your lacrosse meet!) good night!

hello everyone!! today was great!! actually it was very depressing, but my brother came home, and even tho hes dirty and i hate him i did miss him so he cheered me up and compleatly turned around my day! and since i was happy, my mom was happy which makes her nicer. anyway my day was rather uneventful im just bored and im waiting for robert to come home from work and go on line ( i know im pathetic) but untill then i have nothing else to do so i figured id pass my time by writing to you people. i didnt have to do anything today it was nice and a long needed break. and i got to sleep threw band!!!YAY but i realized im not living in reality and even tho i have no responsibilities and my life is practically perfect i need to focus and actually start working in school and doing something around the house cuz im spoiled and i can get my way out of too many things with no consequenses. like just not going to class and the teacher doesnt care cuz im john mcerleane its getting a tad rediculous and im quite annoyed with myself, but im changing things and hopefully that will make my few fake problems i have better, even if it requires more wok on my part and effort ugh i hate effort - anyway robert hasnt come on so i think im just going to bed and ill see him tomarrow good night every one!! !!feel better *ADAM YUDMAN*!!

Hello! apparently i have alot more readers than i thought? well most my friends are dorks and have no lives, so understandably so. well even tho i think its stupid ill continue wrighting in my blog just for you guys! heh anyway i tried adding a response thing at the bottom but i dont read so it was very confusing, and since i dont really care i gave up on it, someday someone will have to show me how to do it. ok my life isnt that exciting so this blog entry is finished. todays extra special shout out goes to *AMANDA GONG* yay cuz she is just that cool! your welcome here anytime you wanna stay in the area hehe. so later everyone!!

hi all! i know i said i was done with the whole dorky blog thing, but i actually have something to right about and im scared that if i abaondon it too long it will disappear. so anyway listen to my week: IT SUCKED!! it started out nice like most spring breaks are hanging out with friends etc. but then on sat i was almost killed by some old guy who lost controll of his car and went speeding twards me at like 200 mph but luckaly only my foot was run over it wasnt that bad i spent the night in the er, and now i had a story for the grand kids. so hohun day of rest and back to fun (HAHA-not that lucky!)so then on sunday i got sick. i couldnt stand with out getting dizzy, walking two feet i was outs breath, my heart and lungs hurt, i had back pain, my eyes hurt when i move them, and everything was soar so from sun to wed i sat on a couch watched movies and slept. finally wed i felt better and when i woke up thurs day i was sooo much better i ran upsatairs to take a shower, passed out, hit my head on a toilet it burst open on impact and i went unconcious ( with one of my fingers landing in the toilet ewww! thank god i hadnt used it yet and my brother isnt home this week!!) anyway i finally came around and looked in the mirror saw i was bleeding called for daddy (fainted again) daddy came( fainted in his lab) then i was down and i had time to rest we rested a while and then my mother walked in and i felt like simon in As Good as it Gets after he was asulted cuz she started crying, and i was like what? so she handed me a mirror and i was like oh god! ill be hidious for the rest of my life since there was a one and a half in gash on my head that was down to the skull so we drove over to the doctor to get that checked and we got there and guess what, i almost fainted again!so im lying on a table doctors all around me doing god knows what. so finally i was better and i sat up drank a lil water that was disgusting and they went to take my blood pressure again to see if it finally stabilize but they didnt even get to finish cuz the top number was 60 (it should usually be like at least over a hundred) so i lied down cuz i was loosing conciousness, and top make things nicer, while im liying on a bed half-consious i hear my mother outside talking to nurses as if she actually knew something and signing to them her dumb songs from school about the ear canal and the states and nickolas culver they are not cool songs! THEY SUCK!! anyway back to me, doctors are talking to me about dumb things to keep me from loosing conciousness but anyway they hooked me up to an iv tube thing like the thing in hospitals that hangs and goes in threw your hand, but that was in me and they didnt have the right needles so they gave me this huge thing thjat was like and inch and a half but i delt and after that i was much better but they didnt want me to leave a doctors office since i was so unstable so i could go to the plastic surgeon like planned, i had to go to the ER. so we went to the damn ER! we got ther didnt have to wait that was nice but i had this crazy docyor who didnt seem to belive i was sick since i wasnt in pain or didnt have any symptoms so she was like well annoyed we kept saying no to all her questions and finally said " well has anyone in your family just died young for no reason" and left but i was glad to get rid of her so i got stitched up and got an ekg an then they made me eat fake hospital food but then some gay man came up to me and asked if id like to be in the newspaper about all this it would of been exciting but i had been with the dr since 10 it was now 4 and i didnt feel like sitting there anymore so that was my week you reading this isnt quite the same as reading it cuz im shure it sounds more serious than it actually is and i cant tell jokes on line there even worse then they are in real life heh well anyway i know this is long i hope slightly enjoyable, incase you were wondering to day was good cuz i finally got to be with robert... i missed him sooooooooooooooooooooooo much!! but we got to watch X-MEN my favorite cartoon with my favorite person! awww oh well it was fun altho i wish i didnt have to go to church so he didnt have to go hmm oh well its just really hard the first while thenthen its just you miss him (you readers dont care, so - heh what readers? any way good night and hope your spring breaks were fun!!

ok i still have no intrest in continuing this blog but i couldnt end with out giving big ups to my ruthie: wut up wut up ruthdog ight! oh god ruthie were dorks! and i have to metion the love of my life: the lovely, incomprable, nicole pagnotta!, lisa and erin for even tho theyll never see this they will still be mentioned, and my only friend whos not a girl: mark turner. ok now the blog is officially over!

Today is my one month anniversary with robert... well actually its only been four weeks, a full 31 days will be on fri but as far as im concerned its a month! so happy anniversary to me!! anyway im feeling better today, i feel like im on drugs tho. i spent the day at robs house with amanda and vinny and somegirl who was south asian (sorry i dont remember your name or anything i really liked you tho you were nice! i was just really out of it the whole time but i really did like you alot tho!!) she was cool i was like dying so rob sent me home and i got some sleep ate a little (eggplant rolllatini 2nd best meal!) and watched X-MEN !!!BEST CARTOON EVER!!! and now i feel all better!! but i feel still like im on drugs ?? w/e. ok ive decided no one actually cares about my life and i dont care enough to keep writing about it so im done with this whole blog thing it was fun while it lasted but everything comes to and end and its time for this to end ok night all!

Hi!!! this is my very first blog entry. i doubt itll last long since i reall dont have enough ethusiasm in it to continue my entrys and i doubt ill know how to ever get back here to write anything, any was today was pretty boring im sick and when ever i walk i get dizzy but im hanging in there! i just mainly slept the day and slrpt threw the fox and the hound altho i did get out to lucas's and saw KRISTEN FELCKER!!!! i love her thatwas the hjigh light of my day! this was the first day in our relationship i didnt get to see rob it was sad but not as bad as i thought it was gonna be amanda f really helped with that THANKSfor all your time and stuff to me:) i wish he coulda come over for at least a sec but oh well anyway i know my life isnt as exciting as nici pags and i have no clue why any one would want to intentionaly hear about it but here it is so enjoy!!